Monday, November 16, 2015

"We'll Be Lucky To Live Through It!"

Remember this guy in the movie "The Hunt for Red October?"

The actor's name is Senator Fred Dalton Thompson.

That's right, SENATOR Fred Thompson from Tennessee. He played the role of a Rear Admiral on the aircraft carrier. Do you remember his statement from this scene? It was 1990 when the movie was made so think back...

"This business is going to get out of control! It's going to get out of control and we'll be lucky to live through it!"

To let it sink in, just take a second and watch it:

"We'll be lucky to live through it!"

Senator Thompson died November 1, 2015. His quote is very accurate when applied to our lives. Nobody gets out of this alive. The "business" of life is always out of control and escalating.

Senator Thompson did not make it out alive. Please do not think I am disrespecting him in any way. He was one of my favorite politicians (and one of my favorite actors as well). I supported him when he was a presidential candidate and still think he would have made a wonderfully competent president. He had professional presence. He was analytical. He had the ability to speak and relay content concisely. He got his points across in very few words.

The public does not know a lot about his religious background. We do know, thanks to Wikipedia and other sources, where he held his church membership and where he liked to go when home in Tennessee. He was quoted once as saying when asked about it during campaigning, "Me getting up and talking about what a wonderful person I am and that sort of thing, I'm not comfortable with that, and I don't think it does me any good." He considered his walk with God personal.

He did not make it out alive and neither will we.

We have a lot going on around us these days in this sin filled world. Terrorism, substance abuse, narcissism, greed, murder... and the list goes on. The effects of the fall of man in the garden are all around us just as much as they are carried and expressed within us. Condemned. No one will be lucky enough to live through it.

Except... Look at the Gospel of St. John, the 3rd chapter, verses 17-18"

17 For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through him. 18 Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe is condemned already, because he has not believed in the name of the only Son of God. (ESV)

We may not live through it, but those in Christ will live after it. And they will live forever.

With all that said about a sinful world above. Someone recently was asking in a Confessional Lutheran Facebook group if others were sometimes irked a bit about those who suddenly come out of the woodwork asking for "prayers" when tragedies like what happened in Paris occurred. He was referring to those who are all about the issue today, and then tomorrow "they are back to posting pictures of their cats." I sometimes have the same reaction even if it may come off a bit Pharisee-like (hey... I am still a sinner too). I felt for his question as I too have that reaction. Here was my response:

"I am all for anything that turns the head of the sinner back to the savior... but let me give you a slightly secular perspective from a confessional Lutheran paramedic... 150 people killed in Paris from a terrorist attack in Paris is no more a bump in the road than a 150 dying from starvation or the 200 transported by my ambulance service in the last two days. I will attempt to pray without ceasing... as much as my sinful self will allow... but the content will only vary slightly as the sinful world is no different today than yesterday. Is this an alarm bell? From a human perspective yes... from a Christian perspective no... Satan is out to get us all. All are condemned by the law. Some are atoned for by Christ's death. I will pray... but tomorrow I will be back to posting pictures of my cat (if I had a cat)... this tragedy is just part of living in a sin affected, tainted world. I see it in the streets every day from the patient compartment of an ambulance. Lord have mercy is probably the best prayer of all."

It was off the cuff, but it sums up my feelings. As Christians, we should always look to the empty cross. Christ crucified, died and risen again.

Many around us look at these things and want to point to the "end of times." They quote misinterpreted context of signs from scripture. Some even play with astrology in the name of scripture rather than regarding scripture itself. I say this... focus on the cross and resurrected savior... and the world to come instead of the WHEN it will happen. There is still much to be done.

A great fairly short watch on this is at this link by Reverend Fisk at Worldview Everlasting:

Greek Tuesday: I think I'll Go For A Walk (Mark 13:1-13)

Focusing on the end times (which we have been in since Christ ascended) robs us of doing the Lord's work.

We cannot live through this life and ultimately we do not want to do so. "Come Lord Jesus," is uttered quite often.

So in a land that is currently embroiled in many issues (including a all consuming internet argument over the lack of Christmas on coffee cups), I will leave you with a quote that I believe sums it all up... It is from a wonderful servant of the Lord... a man I have not yet met in person but that I hold in great theological regard... the Rev. Bart Day, Executive Director of the Office for National Missions for the LCMS:

"I love this image. We should not expect, nor do we need Starbucks proclaiming the gospel. So have a cup of coffee and enjoy, even if it is missing the trees, wreaths, and other holiday images (as if those things proclaimed the Christ). Come to church and receive the blood of Christ, given and shed for you. Find Jesus where He is to be found. Enjoy the first article gifts for what they are. Let Starbucks do coffee. The church will do Jesus."

So... the "business" is already out of control. We will not live through it. But there is a life after this one for those in Christ.

Focus on the cross.

Take heart in the words of Paul's first epistle to the Corinthians, verse 1:18...

18 For the word of the cross is folly to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God. (ESV)


In memory of Senator Fred Thompson 1942-2015.

Friday, November 6, 2015

Ten Years Have Passed - November 6, 2005


This will be the second blog entry I have written in regards to the November 5, 2005 tornado that struck Vanderburgh and Warrick counties. In a way, this one really is not about the tornado and the disaster left in its path, but more about a patient of mine and how two tornado stories crossed paths.

Sometimes we only meet people for a few tense minutes in EMS and then we never know what happens after the patient is delivered and the paths diverge once again.

Before anyone goes all HIPAA on me regarding confidentiality, I have permission from the person whose story I am about to tell to relay it as written.

But first, I have to tell how I got there.

This was not the first time I had responded to a tornado strike. It was my third.

On the night of November 5, 2005, the wife and I had went to bed fairly early. I had to be up the next morning to drive to Tell City, Indiana to work a part-time paramedic shift at Perry County EMS, so staying up late was not really an option. My wife’s parents were in town and were staying here at the house with us. Early in the morning on the 6th, I remember the phone ringing and getting a call from my ex-wife who stated very factually that there was a tornado and it was heading pretty close to our house. I remember acknowledging the call and starting to get up, but then falling back to sleep almost immediately, as if it did not quite register in my mind.

It was probably less than two minutes later when I was awakened again. This time it was the wind. I now know what they mean by it sounds like a freight train. It sounded closer than what it turned out it was. In actuality, the path went somewhat southwest to the northeast, about three quarters of a mile south of my house across the corn fields in the river bottoms area. This is south of the levee that protects Evansville from floods.

The sound soon subsided and I had not really heard anything other than the wind. Even though I had thought, “That sounds like a tornado,” I still feel rapidly back to sleep.

The phone rang again.

This time it was AMR dispatch. The tornado had hit the Eastbrook Mobile Home Park on Lynn Road in the south east corner of the county.

In less than two minutes, I had grabbed a uniform and was out the door. The normal fifteen minute drive to work took about six minutes in the dark of a very early Sunday morning. It was a very surreal feeling out that morning. It was windy at my house with leaves blowing around. It looked wet, but it was not really raining (at least at my house). My father-in-law later told me that I sprayed the house and garage with rocks from the driveway when I departed.  I remember meeting an Evansville Police Car at the intersection of Highway 41 and Riverside. The officer saw my uniform and waved me through the red with an extreme sense of urgency.

I got to our station and began readying units for response. We emptied the place of every ambulance we had in less than thirty minutes. There were other ambulances coming from other counties as well.

I ended up on the last unit we had, sitting at our most central post location, covering the city for 911 calls while every other asset we had was at the scene. The city behaved. We sat… and we sat. We listened to the radio traffic. Two separate triage areas were set up. One to the north and the other to the south. The scene was big and was hard to assess in the middle of the night. The south triage area could only be reached by going south into the river bottoms near my home and then heading east to where it was established at the parking lot to the Angel Mounds Boat Ramp on the Ohio River.

We watched the District 10 disaster response trailer pass our posting location on highway 41 on its way to the scene.

Then we received our call. We were sent to scene staging at the corner of Pollack and Green River Road. We responded… but as we pulled into that parking lot we were sent to south triage at the boat ramp.

At this point, the radio traffic had indicated that quite a few patients were being transported but they were only coming out of the debris a few at a time. We did not have a clue what we would be receiving.

As a paramedic, you always prepare before arrival on a call. What you are supposed to do as well as initial care planning run through your head. It was less than a five minute response.

As we pulled up to triage, the ambulance in front of us was already loading a patient. We were being directed to a pickup truck with several firefighters and a supine patient in the rear. When we were about seventy-five feet away, something I saw triggered training… the patient was lying on a door… like maybe it had once been an exterior door to a home. It was being used as a spine board.

Something about the patient had caught my eye. The lateral sides of her knees were touching the door on both sides of her body, one knee pointing left, the other pointing right. Normally, the pelvis does not allow the legs to fall into this position. When they do it is indicative of what is called an “open book” pelvic fracture.

The first responders were preparing to move her to a long spine board. I exited the ambulance and yelled ahead of me for them to hold off on that move for a moment. At that time, I had been in EMS twenty-three years, but I had just recently learned that you cannot apply a spine board in the usual way using a “log roll” technique when the patient has this type of pelvic fracture. If they are moved in the normal fashion, the jagged fractures of the pelvis can lacerate the femoral arteries and they can exsanguinate in mere minutes.

I climbed up in the back of the pickup, and we all worked to apply a tight pelvic wrap using a blanket to bind the pelvis back into a more normal, splinted position and then slid her feet first onto the long spine board without using a “log roll” technique.

We initiated transport and our patient received ALS care in route. Her pain was tremendous. I remember that extra caution was taken to make the ride in to the ER fast but smooth. We were diverted to the trauma center downtown as the closest one had already been deluged with patients. It was amazing that we only received one patient… but that was how they were being found… one at a time.

It was a quick turnaround at the ER. I remember someone from the hospital making our cot and putting two bottles of water on it for us to drink. I was very much worried about the patient and this specific injury, knowing that if she survived it was going to take a lot to return to normal lower extremity function. But true to EMS fashion, I shoved the thoughts from my head and went back to work, not knowing what else the early morning would bring. I remember asking our medical director a few weeks later if the patient I had brought in that night truly did have an open book pelvic fracture and he had indicated that my assumption and treatment was correct.

Over the eight years that followed, I would use this scenario (patient info redacted of course) in paramedic class to drive home how to treat these types of injuries and what to look for when approaching the patient.

One rule I have always tried to enforce with myself was this: Never follow up on your own patient outcomes. I guess I never wanted to know if it turned out badly. So even though I thought about this call a lot, I never really knew the outcome.

Then it happened. Eight years later.

I received a message from someone on Facebook stating that I had saved their life in 2005. I did not know how to respond… I took a chance and typed back, asking if this was at the tornado and if she had incurred a pelvic injury. I waited for the response… it came, and I quote: “Yes and yes. I was the girl on the door!”

We talked for about a week on Facebook, and she wanted to meet. So we set a time to meet at my office at AMR. She said she had something for me and I had already thought of something appropriate to give to her as well.

On September 12, 2013, Christie Nolan walked into AMR.
Christie Nolan
We chatted for a long time. She told me how she had looked out the window just in time to see her own SUV lifted off the ground by the wind. It then crashed through the wall and pinned her through the floor to the ground under the debris. She was there for a long time. She told how she was afraid to open her eyes so she kept them shut. She talked about the sounds and the smells and how they were still remembered.

She talked about how she finally decided that she probably would not be found unless she tried to get herself out. She knew something was very wrong with her legs. She started moving things with just her hands and started making a way out from under the debris, until after a long period of work and quite some distance, she made it out to where rescuers could find her. She talked about keeping her eyes tightly closed the entire time.

They placed her on the door. They took her to the boat ramp. She heard our voices and was treated and appropriately and cared for by all.

I explained why we had placed the pelvic wrap and not log rolled her. We talked about the long course of her recovery and how now she could not only walk but could dance as well. She had recovered well. Best of all, she was in an EMT class.

She gave me a gift… one I use now for teaching that same open book pelvic fracture scenario. A copy of the x-ray of her injury. Now students can see the actual damage this type of injury causes on the inside. I gave her a gift as well… the challenge coin from the response. She deserved it. She was a rescuer… she rescued herself enough to be found by digging with her hands out of the rubble, enough so that she could be found.


A photo Christie made and placed on Facebook
Some did not make it that night. She did. She is now an EMT and living in Tennessee. She wants to keep her Indiana EMT certification. I am going to help her put her recertification papers in order soon. She thinks I am a hero. I see myself as a grumpy, old paramedic.

I am fond of telling people that we do not save lives… we are simply like a life preserver, thrown to the immediate aid of those in peril and that we keep them safe and get them to where they need to be.

This is one of the few cases where the “how” of how we cared for a patient made a difference. We stay in touch. It seems like this week of November always accentuates that contact…

As I sit here in bed tonight writing this, it is raining outside. There is thunder occasionally at a distance. It is pretty warm out, a lot like that night in 2005. The memories come back pretty easily. Like a movie.

I have read several stories from other medics and EMTs tonight. Many saw a lot more than me. I will always remember how Terri Clark described doing her first chest decompression that night. I will remember how Sammy Sookey stayed at the scene till the last patient was out. I will remember the dedication of Nate Stoermer and how he handled medical command… and I will remember the discussions about this night with a now departed friend. I will remember the actions of Knight Township (now gone, but not forgotten) and all of the other departments and agencies. I will always remember my response to Petersburg and the tornado damage and patients there as well. I am glad I only had one patient on this particular night.

As I finish this, it is only a couple of hours before the exact time marking the passing of ten years. Even though I am not at all happy about how I met Christie Nolan, I am glad I was there in that moment as I am sure are all of those who helped that night.

Christie… be safe. Thank you for showing those of us in EMS what the other side of the story looks like. We rarely have anyone thank us after the call. Sometimes it even makes us feel uneasy or out of place. I would like to thank you for letting us be there for you. Recognizing each individual as you did by seeking them out is a wonderful, unforgettable gesture.

I have purposefully left out pictures from the tornado and some other aspects as this writing is about the patient and the caregiver. If you would like to read a bit more and see a couple of pictures from that night, please see my entry at:

http://leeturpenffff.blogspot.com/2014/12/bring-me-to-life-song-revisited.html

An article posted today in the Courier and Press:

http://www.courierpress.com/news/local/for-first-responders-vivid-memories-of-november-tornado-remain-22a37e65-6cdb-07d9-e053-0100007f0809-341030831.html


 

Sunday, November 1, 2015

In My Defense


After listening to the sermon today on All Saint’s Day, my mind wandered a bit in the afternoon as I went in to spend some time covering on the ambulance. This line of thinking continued through lunch and now that my commitment to EMS for the day has ended, I am going to endeavor to write this down and relay it to you.

Again, as I point out quite often, I am no theologian. I have to apologize up front if I err or if the timeline is not quite right to place those conversing in this piece together in a timeframe where this conversation would occur. Either way, I still think it is a good representation of what is going through my head today.

Maybe it was triggered by the overview and segregation of the components of the Old Testament in adult bible study this morning… maybe it was spurred on by the most appropriate sermon for All Saint’s Day… but either way, here it comes.

Law and Gospel.

The Law condemns and the Gospel saves.

In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was in the beginning with God. All things were made through him, and without him was not anything made that was made. In him was life, and the life was the light of me. The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.  – The Holy Gospel of John 1:1-5 ESV

So, as I took was partaking in the Sacrament of the Altar today, this thought began. I started think of Jesus as the defender. The defender of what? The defender of me?

At first, I pictured Christ sort of as a lawyer as this was milling around in my brain. I then thought that this was far from the case. How had Jesus defended his position when questioned? He had done so with scripture. How had he defended himself in front of Pharisees? Again, with scripture. No fancy convoluted arguments. Scripture.

Then lastly, how had he answered Satan when tempted? Scripture.

Christ, my defender, Christ my Redeemer would use the Word, being the Word himself.

So… Here is the little thought process that ran through my head most of the day today.

In the presence of God, blinding white, pure light, elevated above all things… I envision this as that vision seen by John
when the saints are present. I also think of Satan, with his head held firmly against a gray rock, the rock being there for this sole purpose, by the foot of the archangel Michael. The fallen creature constantly sputtering accusations against all men throughout history. Knowing that he is trapped under the foot of Michael and condemned by God to total separation from God. His fate is sealed. He is now the accuser, trying to reap his own harvest through knowing that sin separates Man from God for eternity.

I can hear Satan now as he throws out my sin in what he believes to be an unfaltering argument that I deserve the same fate as he. And he is correct, I do DESERVE the same fate as he…

“Even today, he has sinned many times. Many times without number. He has failed. He has not been meek. He has overlooked those in need. He has not made your kingdom first. He has failed and deserves the same fate as I,” as his hissing, vile sounding words are aimed to the father.

Before the accusation ends, Christ answers. “Behold, the Lamb of God, who takes away the sin of the World!”

I am reminded that I am a baptized child of God. My sins have been forgiven.

Satan writhes beneath St. Michael’s foot, unmoving with the power of God to hold the fallen one captive. He exhorts once more… “Even today, he has not shown compassion. He has yelled at his children, he has not been caring. He has hurried, to his own ends. He has been greedy with his time and his money. His mind is not on you, God. He claims to try, but by your own acknowledgement there are none good! No not one! Therefore he has failed and deserves the same fate as I.

Christ does not even raise His head nor open his eyes, but speaks in the same authoritative voice as before. “Whatever is bound on earth shall be bound in heaven, and whatever is loosed on earth shall be loosed in heaven.”

I am reminded that I am but a poor miserable sinner, having failed in thought, word and deed. I have also been absolved of that sin through the Office of the Keys and confessional absolution.

Satan’s anger grows, as it has welled with each statement he has made, against every believer throughout history… “He is filled with lust for the creation and without natural love for the creator. He seeks his own glory over yours. He cannot even go out amongst men without hurrying along, making his own agenda a priority over the needs of others. At time, you God are far from his thoughts. He repents… and then fails in another place and time. You must give him the same fate as I! It is only fair. He has failed your law!”

Christ opens his eyes to looking past Satan as He speaks. “Take eat, this is my body. This is the blood of the covenant, which is poured out for many for the forgiveness of sins.
I am comforted by the Sacrament of the Altar, mystic sweet communion, knowing that my sins are forgiven as the Lord has instituted.

Satan nearly screams in punished, maniacal laughter as he retorts. “He is evil. He has the sin of Adam in him. Your creation chose to turn on You. This one is just another example of one who desires all to benefit himself and not You. His actions, You cannot even bear to look upon! He must be separated from You as he as just as sickening as I who have been condemned. He must have the same fate as I!”

Jesus stands form His position at the right hand of the Father, opening His arms wide to show the scarred hands. “I was pierced for his transgressions; I was crushed for his iniquities.”

Satan seizes out of control under Michael’s foot. The foot of a warrior angel. “He MUST die! He must be bound with the same punishment as I. There is no good in him! Send him to the same fate as I!”

Satan is correct. There is no good within me that comes from me or my willingness to do good. The only good in me is that placed there by God.

Jesus, does not even answer Satan this time. He turns to the Father. Christ the intercessor, Christ the Redeemer, and says, “Tetelestai! It is finished!”

And for my case, Satan is silenced for all eternity. He can no longer accuse. His fate is sealed and so is mine. I shall not share his fate. The trial is over. I have inherited the kingdom of Heaven.

Sola Scriptura. Scripture Alone.

Christ defends me with the Word as He is the Word.
 
For a great sermon on the word "Sola" and how the Solas properly describe our faith, you can view an excellent sermon from October 25, 2015 by the Rev. Chad Eckels at the link below. He, unlike me, is a theologian.